It’s time to let go.

So, I have a confession to make...

My spectacular friend and colleague, Priya Dhighra, and I decided to cancel our November Masterclass. I've heard from so many of you that you are at capacity for even one more thing. I get it. I am too.

No big deal. Right?

As it turns out, it's been a surprisingly big deal...for me. I was all set to turn this decision into an example of how you have to listen and know when to let go. Decide, check the box, move on!

But, in that funny way that intuition has of popping up, something stopped me. I knew deep down it wasn't really that easy. My mind started racing with all the thoughts "people are going to think you can't keep up", "you have to be consistent", and my favorite "just make it work, Steph." I had so much inner critic chatter it was deafening.

I couldn't even get myself together to write an email to deliver some pretty non-earth-shattering news. Here I am, preaching about ruthlessly prioritizing your time, making decisions that are right for you, and listening to your intuition and I can't let go of expectations, worry, and some fear. (To be clear, I know no one is measuring me by my ability to deliver a Masterclass, but #oldprogramming. Insert eye roll here.)

As it turns out, letting go isn't as easy as it seems.

The universe has a sense of humor. In the midst of several of these kinds of business decisions (because #entrepreneurlife), my fabulous daughter turned 16, got her license, got a car, and started a job. She went to her first in-person homecoming and formally kicked off college planning. Whew.

Guess what the "letting go" issue was really about?

Yeah. It was about her. It was the realization that I really am going to have to let her go, soon. And, it was about a lot of other things, the things of life, not just about the Masterclass.

So instead of twisting this into some kind of a lesson about making trade-offs, I'm simply going to be transparent and say that sometimes letting go sucks. It can be hard and messy - even when you know it's the right thing, the best thing, to do.

And yet...it is what we are called to do. To let go of the old and make room for the new.

So, just for today, I'm taking a page out of the playbook of the trees in fall. I'm going to show off my color, add to the glorious landscape of those around me, and let go when I'm ready. I hope you do the same.